Over 10 years ago I decided to start over in my life. I was feeling lost and broken. I felt like everything in my life was difficult. I was always trying to be perfect and get it right. The harder I tried the more things “broke”.
It was as if I were a beautiful piece of fine China that was dropped on the floor. I couldn’t be thrown away. I had to pick up all of the pieces and find a way to put them back together. The problem with doing that is that when things break the pieces tend to shift. Things change forever and we don’t put it back exactly the same. Have you ever felt that way??? It’s a terrible feeling!
So lately, I have become enamored with the Japanese practice of Kintsugi “golden joinery”. This is the method of restoring the broken pieces with a lacquer mixed with gold, silver or platinum. The Japanese philosophy of “wabi-sabi” means to find beauty in broken or old things”. What a beautiful concept. If we choose to see the value in the broken and lovingly restore it we can see the beauty in ourselves. We will not be restored to our original selves but maybe the bumps and bruises we acquire over the years make us more beautiful. We are certainly wiser and perhaps more in tune. Why not more beautiful?
The funny thing is with everything that was going on in my life 10 years ago, I started very simply by changing my food. It was a good start. It put me on a path to taking care of myself. Some days I literally fall back on just that. Some days I just lovingly prepare a meal for myself that will nourish my body to its best potential. Some days that is all I need.
So much happened after that. I am still a work in progress. The lovely thing that happened is that I have walked through the fire and keep rising. Somehow, 10 years later I am more fit and happy than I was at the beginning of this chapter in my life.
I won’t lie though. There are some days I still feel very vulnerable and weak. There are days I have my doubts about the future. Some days I still feel lost. BUT…most days I feel empowered. Most days I feel confident and sexy. Most days I am sure that I am on the right path. It is a daily practice of self care that keeps me on track. What I know for sure is the missteps of the past are just that – the past. I have made room in my life for new and better days.
I have been broken. I put myself back to together the best way I knew how. I am happy with the new me I crafted. Please know if I can do it anyone can.
If you are feeling the same and would like to talk about how we might work together at getting you put back together click on the link below to schedule a free intro call with me. I truly hope this serves you today.
Love and light,